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Cassandra Cain ([personal profile] onewhoisall) wrote2012-10-21 08:42 am
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Kaine. He's missing, I have been searching. Looking for him since I surprised him but unable to find him. It takes me a while but I find him, finally, in a dark alley. The shape of his body familiar enough by now that it makes me stop, hesitate and pause before I drop from the rooftop into the alley and land silently. My nose wrinkles, the smell of booze and urine fill my nostrils as I move towards him. I creep forward, eyes taking in the bottle and the hint of hair on his cheeks as I approach him from behind. I understand him before I see him.

I don't talk to him, don't give him the chance before I strike out quick and sharp at a bundle of nerves. I murmur an apology as his body goes slack and I move forward to catch him. The bottle breaks and I pull him away from it before collapsing back against the building. He is heavy in my arms but I have carried heavier.

"Kaine," I murmur, a soft apology before I move his weight slightly. I struggle but it is a struggle that I can bear. Lifting the grapple gun, I fire it before hooking his body to mine. We fly together, slowly across the city and when he begins to stare I hit him again. It is only when we are safe back at my apartment that I will allow him to waken.

I place him in the shower, grunting at the weight and rubbing my shoulder at the tension. I glance looking around before my eyes settle on the cannister, taking the razor and foam I move over to him before straddling his waist. The cool of the tiles soothes me as I ignore the smell, the presence of him and concentrate on the task at hand. I do not slip, I shave him cleanly before I reach up, moving close to him before I press the on button.

He will be angry but I am ready. I will not allow him to destroy himself.
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[personal profile] badtotheclone 2012-10-25 08:35 pm (UTC)(link)
Okay? What does she mean by okay? She's still touching me and leaning against me so... I don't know. But she isn't upset so I figure that's pretty good. I don't think I could stand to lose another friend to my stupidity. Which reminds me that I need to go talk to Helen and apologize.

"I never said I wanted that!" I grumble. "The masks would get in the way anyway."
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[personal profile] badtotheclone 2012-10-25 09:16 pm (UTC)(link)
"You're cruel," I say, finally starting understand what she's doing. This sort of... playful teasing is not something I'm used to at all. A lot of things are becoming clear about how she's been acting toward me.

"And maybe I like it cold," I say, grabbing her foot and lifting her up off the ground by it. I know she's good enough to not smack her head as she swings and I'm showing her she's not the only one that can mess around.

Besides, bats like being upside down, don't they?
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[personal profile] badtotheclone 2012-10-26 04:59 am (UTC)(link)
The nice thing about holding her like this is that I don't actually have to look down at her, so if her shirt is slipping off, I don't see it. I can just eat my pizza in (relative) peace.

"Yeah, sure, I'll let go," I say, opening up my hand. She doesn't budge though, as I'm making sure that she's still sticking to the surface of my hand.

Almost by accident, a small smile quirks at the corner of my mouth as I take another bite of pizza.
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[personal profile] badtotheclone 2012-10-26 11:06 pm (UTC)(link)
"Fine," I say, stuffing the last bite of pizza into my mouth and reaching down to grab her hands. I pull her up and unstick her foot from my hand at the same time, letting her get into a standing position.

"You weigh more than you'd think."
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[personal profile] badtotheclone 2012-10-27 08:26 pm (UTC)(link)
"After you sucker punch them," I say, not moving to push her away. Now that I know what the little things she's doing mean I'm less comfortable with them, but somehow I can't quite bring myself to push her away.

For now, it's easy to keep myself from getting too... invested that way. The sting of being a monster, of being unworthy of being around people, is fresh in a way that makes it easy to fend off any feelings of anything more than mild appreciation.
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[personal profile] badtotheclone 2012-10-28 12:12 am (UTC)(link)
"Sucker nerve strike then."

I know it's not really a sucker blow. Even drunk I'm not easy to sneak up on for most people. But then again, she's not most people. She's not like anyone else, really.

And I don't know why she's so interested in saving me. It's a waste of time on her part

"I don't understand you."
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[personal profile] badtotheclone 2012-10-28 04:58 pm (UTC)(link)
"Easier than I used to be," I admit. With a Spider-Sense I didn't even have to try to be alert, it just happened. Still, not having the vision is a nice trade-off. Those alone would drive me crazy.

"I understand wanting to help me. You're a hero, it's what you do. I don't understand you... wanting more."

I don't see how anyone would. Why anyone would want something like that with me, especially knowing what I am, confuses me.
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[personal profile] badtotheclone 2012-10-28 06:40 pm (UTC)(link)
"I don't understand why."

She doesn't have to tell me though. Maybe it's best that she doesn't. I just can't understand or fathom it though. There is nothing about me that would seem... desirable that I can see. I'm more trouble than I'm worth, and I'm not worth anything.

"I think you're crazy."
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[personal profile] badtotheclone 2012-10-28 07:15 pm (UTC)(link)
"Certifiable," I say, allowing myself to be pulled a bit closer. I want to believe what she's saying, that I'm a good person deep down, but I can't.

Same as I want to kiss her, but I can't, or I won't. Give her some time and she'll see what I really am. Better if I don't get too close or attached. At least not more than I already have.
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[personal profile] badtotheclone 2012-10-28 08:14 pm (UTC)(link)
"Cass," I say, placing a hand on her chest to stop her from pulling me any closer. It's too tempting to give in to and I admit that I've found the things I want the most are a bad idea.

"I'm not good and I don't think I can be. But we'll see."

We'll see. Maybe one of these days I will kiss her, but not today. We'll see.
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[personal profile] badtotheclone 2012-10-28 10:39 pm (UTC)(link)
"You're being too impulsive, Fox Girl."

That is probably the first time in my life I've criticized someone for that. But I don't think I'm over-thinking this at all. This is what's best for both of us. When she realizes what a lost cause I am, she'll be grateful.
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[personal profile] badtotheclone 2012-10-28 11:03 pm (UTC)(link)
"Nope," I say, taking another slice of pizza and taking a bite out of it. She's determined, but I know she's disillusioned just like Sybil was. She'll learn eventually.

"Not tomorrow night either. Or the night after that."